Been a while

 Boy it really has been a while. 

Today is a day I just need to vent.  I feel like a shit bag and it's just made worse by the fact that my kid passed out for about 10 minutes and I didn't notice it.  As if that's not bad enough, it obviously sent her into a tizzy and she and I had words in a house that isn't ours that we're staying in.  I don't feel like I'm doing right by her at all, even though I know I am doing my best, I just feel like it's not good enough.  I don't know what I can do to make things better.

I WANT her and I to be able to have a conversation and NOT escalate to yelling and screaming, but it seems history is doomed to repeat itself because I see myself and my mother and her and her mother all over again.

I feel like I don't have anyone to talk to because if I mention it to Dora, she will mention it to Tony or Sera and honestly it's between Sera and I, no one else.

Of course They are due back here any minute and I'm sitting here crying like a bawl baby and they're going to want to know what happened.  I guess I'll just tell them I feel like a piece of shit because I am not helping out.  I don't have a job, my one option requires me to go to another branch once a week.